Exhausted!

The Tamoxifen was kicking my butt! I tried to be a trooper and plug along but it was hard, I felt like crap almost all of the time. I knew I had to keep taking this pill, I was fine with that but good grief when would I feel good again? I felt like I was never going to feel good again. The truth was this pill was the devil! I had massive hot flashes, headaches, I was tired, my bones hurt and where they removed my tumor hurt constantly. I talked to the doctor this was all “normal” and she kept telling me to hang in there, everything would level out and get better. I did not want to whine and complain, people had their own problems and did not need to hear about mine, so that meant Mike was the winner, he got to listen to me on a daily basis, he was very supportive, he got it, I just wanted to feel like myself again. There were days when I just could not put one foot in front of the other, I was so tired and my head hurt all the time, I was ready to get past all of this. My body was adjusting but my mind was not, I was miserable. When I am talking to people who are going on this medication, I am so upfront and tell the whole truth about my experience because it does get better it just does not seem like it will in that particular moment. I do know some women that have went on Tamoxifen and changed to a different medication due to the side effects but I really did not want to do that, I did not want to keep changing medicine nor did I want to change and have different side effects from another medicine. I made the choice to stay on the Tamoxifen and ride the side effects out, that was my personal choice, definitely does not mean it is the right choice for everyone. 

When Life Gives You Lemons…Make Lemonade or Margaritas, whichever suits your fancy!