Keeping Busy

Lately my life had been nothing but keeping busy, I felt like I was always waiting on a call, a test result, scheduling some type of doctor appointment. And as we all know, like with any sickness, even cancer, life does still go on. It is hard to comprehend at the time but there is still daily chores, meals to prepare and baseball practices and games to attend. Harrison still needed to be places, and Mike did not give me a “free pass” to just quit. I had to get things done and keep moving. I am so very thankful now that he did that, it kept things normal which was what I wanted, I think it is important to stay normal during the toughest of times. At the time, I was a little pissed, I did want to crawl in the hole, hibernate and just stop for a bit, but looking back I am so glad that I kept going and trying my best. Harrison also did not allow me to stop, he kept me going every single day, and thank goodness he did! All that being said this wait was no different than the others, I did my daily stuff (I was also working!) Tried to just push through and wait on yet another result. All the while no treatment had been started yet, see why I was a little pissed, I mean I had cancer lets get going, dammit when do we start the part where I know everything is taken care of and the cancer is gone?! Yes, I was having a pity party and you know what, I did not even feel the slightest bit bad about it, I deserved a pity party, truth be told I had more than one! And each little personal pity party I had was better than the last, sounds crazy but it is true, pity parties are a necessity when you are going through this process, what you learn is, you have the pity party then you bounce back, put your big girl panties on (words of my beloved Mama) and deal with the cards you have been dealt, it is not always the full house but hey, it is what it is and you keep on trucking. I did finally get the call I was waiting on, everything was good and there was no genes or anything so I was cleared to start treatment. Thank goodness, never thought I would be excited to hear you can proceed with treatment, but my thought process was the sooner I start, the sooner it is over and the cancer is gone! 

When Life Gives You Lemons…Make Lemonade or Margaritas, whichever suits your fancy!