Next Step

It was time for my follow up appointment, I was so glad because I needed to find out what the next steps meant, seeing as how I thought I was done and things were over. Once I got to the appointment (Mike was with me) we were taken back relatively quick, normally it was a relatively long wait so it was nice to get in a room to speak with the doctor. She comes in, she wants to look at the incisions, what the heck everyone had seen my boobs at this point multiple times so I was not even phased by it anymore. She said they looked good (everything was scarred and lopsided to me) so for her to say they looked good, I will take it! She went over the results again with us, she said that everything had cleared the margins, it had not spread into my lymph nodes (praise the lord!) It was much more aggressive than they originally thought, it was actually a stage 3, where in the beginning of all of this I was told it was a 2, after testing is when they realized it was stage 3, that was a surprise (not of the good kind may I add!) We were told that I would need to see a doctor for radiation, this is where she lost me, again I thought everything was done (it was a long way from being done) she was giving names, writing them down for me so that I could make an appointment, she mentioned I would need to see an Oncologist, what the hell was happening?? They got the cancer, why am I needing to see all these doctors! My mind was blown and out of control with thoughts. I felt like I was going to pass out, it was so much to process, I could not take it all in. She was really explaining everything it was just so much information, I was glad that Mike was there with me, although I could tell he was surprised also, I guess we both were thinking they got the cancer, the end. Let me tell you, that is not the case! I understand it all now of course after going through it but at that moment in time, I wanted to crawl in a hole and be left alone. It was a long appointment, with WAY to much information to process in one day, thank goodness she gave me copies of everything in a folder because I was surely going to need to read it and try to process everything she said. We did ask questions at this appointment, I remember both Mike and myself asking her things, what we ask her I have no clue. I just knew when I left there I needed to call another doctor and get an appointment ASAP! 

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