The Results Are In!
Wednesday came, that morning I was like ok today is the day! I felt like the call was coming. I was getting ready for work, as usual keeping everything normal. I was going to stay focused and get some work done at the office, I had high hopes for myself, it was after all hump day! I remember on the way to work I decided to stop at Dunkin Donuts for a coffee (it is my guilty pleasure, I am not a Starbucks kinda girl.) I got my coffee, I am driving to work, thinking of the call with the doctor and how it will go, I mean after all this had consumed my life, it really does, you think of nothing else! I get to work, get logged in, I am ready for the day, I am going to get stuff done! I actually start talking to a couple of co-workers, I am really slaying the day (LOL), my best friend from work was off this particular day so it was kinda dragging, after a few conversations I do get a couple of things done that were of importance. I remember looking at my phones, both my cell and my work phone at least 10,000 times, like one of them was going to magically ring if I stared at it long enough, I`m telling you I was going crazy! Mid morning I take a little walk around the building to try and take my mind off things, I knew it was not going to work but hey might as well try. I get back to my desk, looking at the computer, thinking of things I could get done and my cell phone rings, I look at the number and oh dear lord it is the doctors office, it is the one call I have been waiting on since last Friday!! I answer the phone, start walking outside the building as I did not want anyone to hear the conversation, I had told nobody from work about anything that was happening other than my BFF who was off this day. As I am walking out the door she says, “Tracie this is Dr. _ from_” (I am leaving names out at this time) I was like “Yes, its me.” She takes a breath and in that instant I knew, then she says “Tracie it came back cancer!” I literally lost it!!
When Life Gives You Lemons… Make Lemonade or Margaritas, whichever suits your fancy!