Survivors Guilt

Let me tell you Survivors Guilt is real. People think that you are crazy, they tell you how awesome it is that you are on the other side of things, how brave you were going through everything. While all of those things are true, what about the people that do not survive cancer, I cannot even begin to tell you the amount of guilt that you feel. When I was going through cancer, I felt this with every inch of my being, I still feel it, it never stops. Mike was starting to feel this now. He would be at a doctors appointment, just out in public and hear a conversation, talking to a friend that has cancer, whatever the situation was and when you hear their story/journey and it is not like your own, the guilt comes tearing through you, it is a feeling that cannot be described, it is always with you. You are always feeling why was my treatment like this while so and so had a different treatment, why did my doctor do it this way, while so and so had a doctor that took a different route, why was my outcome this and so and so had a completely different outcome, just all these things. It gets so very overwhelming, you are so stressed out, and it honestly tears you up inside. Mike asked me one time, when does this part pass, my response was simple, it never passes, it is still with me. If you have gone through cancer or anything life changing you know what that feeling is like, it is hard.

When Life Gives You Lemons…Make Lemonade or Margaritas, whichever suits your fancy!